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tuck awayI took a xanex to numb the tips of my fingers
And my brain
Just enough to forget how to count
The minutes I waste losing myself in our song
That plays on repeat
In my head and in my car
As I build castles in the air
Dancing on my own silly fairytales
Braiding the stems of the daffodils
That floated around us
and the penik ducks
That were always silent
Like the world, when our eyes met.
I need to fucking sleepYou know,
She was all made up for you.
If you only knew
How long it takes for a girl to precisely apply
The lipstick that makes your knees buckle
Or the hours spent in front of her mirror
Curling every lock just for that one look in your eye
The dollars she spent that day on the dress she couldn't really afford but bought anyway in hopes that your chin would drop, only enough to cause her heart to rise a little,
Or the cd she burned of all your favorite songs for the car ride to the movies, she never knew an indie song could ever make her heart feel this way, as they always reminded her of
all those car rides into vacant fields
and all those long nights in your arms,
Or the stress in the theatre wanting to lace her fingers in between yours
Or the feeling when her stomach dropped as she stumbled over her words as she stared into your eyes over the half eaten spaghetti which was absolutely tasteless, but since you were sitting across from her, everything was wonderful.
If only you knew.
Rotting"Tell me I am loved, again
so I'll prove why its not true
Oh, how you steer this sickness inside
every one of you,
you that cause me to tremble, tremble, tremble
When I speak, I stumble over my words
I stumble over my own feet
and feel like I'm two feet tall,"
Don't be silly, Pretty Girl, you have the world in the palm of your hands,
and all those valentines you had,
those eyelashes that you bat,
you have everything, Pretty Girl
"Everything is nothing," says Pretty Girl
"When your body is numb.
And every beautiful thing is rotting
in my world,"
says Pretty Girl
"All your beautiful things are rotting in my world."
lightLines of light peek through the pulled over curtains
Causing the cozy stiffness of last night's stale crusted tears buried in her eyelids to sluggishly divide
Why must this luminous annoyance trespass in her gloomy cavern
And make her feel
The dull ache in her joints as she struggles to turn the world sideways
Digging herself a new eye-opened darkness beneath her moth-eaten comforters
Time is merely a hallucination when sunlight is absent
And in that case, she can dream forever
Attempting to forget this morose tangible reality that numbs the tips of her ailing fingers and legs.
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